“Accountability is the ability and willingness to be honest with others about your actions and motives, and your willingness to let them remind you about the person you long to be.”

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Resolved: 2013

Resolved: 2013

I’m not very good at following rules. I suck at keeping resolutions. Yet in the latter half of 2012, a friend and I started a system where we create rules based on our goals and are penalized if we violate those rules.

For example, I am notorious for being late, which is unfortunately seen as a characteristic of a bad employee, so I’ve set the super ambitious rule that I must arrive at work by 9:15am every day (I know, I know, this should be terribly easy, but keep in mind I used to sleep through my 12pm classes in college!). So every time I roll in at 9:17, 9:20, 9:45, 10:20 (yes, I know again… this should be easy and I am so lucky to have such a flexible job!), I am penalized $5. There are a bunch of other intricacies to the system, but this is the gist of it.

So I’ve failed miserably and throughout the year have been in several hundred dollars of debt, but this accountability system has helped me see the value of goals and rules. While there is infinite grace for those who are in Christ, there is also tremendous value in discipline.

I’ve heard it said many times that discipline is a muscle. It must be strengthened over time. And I’m beginning to see that you cannot try to be disciplined in one area of your life without being disciplined in others. All these different areas of my life are interwoven. Discipline is a muscle that affects and must be developed in all areas.

Anyway, all this to say I am learning the value of resolutions, and though I will undoubtedly fail (and it’s okay to fail because I am now afforded that freedom in Christ!) here are my resolutions for 2013:

  1. Arrive to work every day by 9:30… unto the Lord!
  2. Exercise 2x/week.
  3. Read more! Finish at least one Christian book/month.
  4. Attend more prayer/worship gatherings.
  5. Share the Gospel at least once. (Lame, I know… but it’s a start!)
  6. Make progress in Japanese Rosetta Stone.

So there they are, my 2013 resolutions, which I will undoubtedly regret posting here haha.

I think 2013 is going to be a good year! 2012 was a year of growth and recalibration. Actually, the last couple years have been years of rest, recovery, and refreshing from what was a very rough and dry season at the end of college.

2011 was a year of figuring things out. It was a year of wrestling with friendship with the world and feeling the strong pull toward apathy. I was presented with many choices between following Jesus or following the world (church, relationships, extracurricular activities, etc.).

2012 however felt like a decisive year, a year when I took a stance for the Lord, yet still needed pruning and grooming. In the last year, with the help of a God-fearing boyfriend, a loving and outreach-aiming church, and just being in places where I could encounter Him, God has brought me back to the watering hole. He has brought me to His secret place of refreshing and renewal. He reminded me of the love He’s given me for people, prayer, worship, for Him.

And because of all this, I believe 2013 will be a good year, a year of living out of the overflow of the past two years and being sent once again to further the kingdom of God. When we are blessed we are blessed with a purpose: to take God’s Gospel to the nations. I believe I’m going to see a lot more of that in this next year.

And so I guess it’s relevant to post some of 2012’s highlights, since this post is now getting ridiculously long and hey it sort of fits:

  1. Studying Radical with the Lifesong Young Adults & speaking at the YA Retreat. As said in the last post, this study really was life-changing. I also felt that speaking at the retreat was a significant step as I had been out of commission in terms of serving (really serving) for over a year… mostly and unfortunately due to apathy.
  2. Disneyland Annual Pass. I still feel angry at myself for this one haha, but as KY told me when we first bought it, I must admit we had some sweet times of fellowship while at one of the Happiest Place(s) on Earth. Memorable moments: 2x date with the bro & his gf, KY’s family outings, Lifesong family + KY & EE.
  3. One Year with KY. I certainly don’t want to be mushy, but I must say that dating a guy who is soooo in love with Jesus has greatly really impacted my life. And… I’ll leave it at that because I don’t want to make certain people barf (ahem, DH!).
  4. Jesus Culture Conference. While the Lifesong YA study of Radical started growing a desire to return back to passion for Christ, this conference is what jump-started it back to life. Word of the conference? Receive. And it was on Miss DH’s birthday too! So glad I got to experience the conference with my two closest compadres: DH & KY.
  5. San Gabriel Valley House of Prayer. Finally getting back into ministry and it feels so good. I now realize that a big reason why we serve is that we simply need to be in places where we can encounter God, otherwise we lose touch with Him as our lives are crowded out by the worries of this world. It feels so good to just love on God and receive from Him. Looking forward to what this tiny House of Prayer becomes because of the faithfulness of God and the cries of His children.

So those are the highlights of 2012. And that’s it for the megapost that has become Resolved: 2013. First real goal of the new year though? Get over this darn SF cold. Here’s to 2013!