Feeling quite despondent today. Thus all the Bible verse posts haha.
Guess I realized it’s been half a month already. Oh how time flies.
It’s nice to know though that there are so many people who understand. Who know that pit in your stomach. That ache when you wake up. The torture of trying to escape, to only have them appear in your dreams again and again (gah seriouslyyyy what is that!!????). The way you guiltily cringe when you see people holding hands, a friend waiting for his girlfriend to finish work, matching profile pictures, or a girl leaning over to kiss her boyfriend’s cheek. There are people out there who get it. There are people who understand that toxic mixture of sadness and jealousy and longing I’m feeling.
But the even greater comfort is that our God understands. He understands! He feels our every hurt, listens to our every cry, rejoices when we manage those small day-to-day victories in life (even if it’s as minute as leaving the apartment, somewhat successfully giving yourself a haircut, or simply rolling out of bed).
Who better to have identify with you than the living God of this universe? A God who, though the very definition of perfect, was and is rejected repeatedly, over and over again. He is a God who loves and loves deeply. A God who gave up EVERYTHING to have a relationship with us. Yet, a God we constantly turn and run away from. He knows heart ache. He knows abandonment. He knows what it means to suffer loss.
He knows what is on my heart. He reaches out, asking me to turn to Him.
God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks to us in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: It is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world.
Clive Staples. Always dropping the mad wisdom and such.
And so, I’ll get through another day. I’ll survive. Now fighting to thrive. I don’t want to waste this opportunity. I don’t want to turn from God again when He’s warring for me to be with Him.
I know God is real. I know that He saves. I know that all these things will work out for my good. I know He will satisfy. I know He’s all I need. I know this isn’t punishment for being such a bad person. I know He forgives me. I know He loves and rejoices greatly over me.
May I never forget what He has done for this world and for me. (And may I finish my paper that’s due in an hour and a half too… haha.)
Soli Deo Gloria.